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		<title>Should</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 24 May 2011 05:21:57 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Should is something I&#8217;ve said a great deal &#8220;I should do this&#8221; &#8220;I should do that&#8221; &#8220;I should be this&#8221; Often I&#8217;ve said it to describe how little I&#8217;ve done Or how lazy I can be I&#8217;ve often said it with longing and to inspire motivation I&#8217;ve often said it because I&#8217;ve felt like a [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Should is something I&#8217;ve said a great deal<br />
&#8220;I should do this&#8221;<br />
&#8220;I should do that&#8221;<br />
&#8220;I should be this&#8221;<br />
Often I&#8217;ve said it to describe how little I&#8217;ve done<br />
Or how lazy I can be<br />
I&#8217;ve often said it with longing and to inspire motivation<br />
I&#8217;ve often said it because I&#8217;ve felt like a failure<br />
That I am worthless and without hope<br />
&#8220;I should do this&#8221;<br />
&#8220;I should be that&#8221;<br />
I should have done more<br />
I should have known better<br />
I should have been told<br />
Should mostly makes me feel bad<br />
Should mostly tears me down<br />
Should is a killer</p>
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		<title>Companion</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 23 May 2011 04:05:07 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Chase</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[This wall is my companion It hears my pleas The floor too It is just as patient and kind My prayers hit the ceiling Echoing off the spinning blades Reflecting off books and shoes Sound is absorbed in the corners All that is trapped are my words Who is there to hear them? Who is [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>This wall is my companion<br />
It hears my pleas<br />
The floor too<br />
It is just as patient and kind<br />
My prayers hit the ceiling<br />
Echoing off the spinning blades<br />
Reflecting off books and shoes<br />
Sound is absorbed in the corners<br />
All that is trapped are my words<br />
Who is there to hear them?<br />
Who is here to hear?</p>
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		<title>Archive/Delete</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 21 May 2011 06:25:39 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Chase</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I hate that I have to delete these files and hide these folders. It feels both weird and wrong. Wrong that it&#8217;s necessary and wrong that I want to do it. Wrong that part of me is enjoying the process. That I am even excited about it. But at the same time profoundly sad. And [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I hate that I have to delete these files and hide these folders.<br />
It feels both weird and wrong.<br />
Wrong that it&#8217;s necessary and wrong that I want to do it.<br />
Wrong that part of me is enjoying the process.<br />
That I am even excited about it.<br />
But at the same time profoundly sad.<br />
And pissed.<br />
I don&#8217;t know what the first step is in starting over like a puzzle without corners.<br />
Even this feels fake.<br />
I have no interest in pretending but I feel constantly aware of myself and the secret motivations for what I do.<br />
To see or to be seen, but never just to be.<br />
I am honestly interested in just being.<br />
There are few things I really believe in and less I know to be true and the bottom of the glass knows &#8220;just being&#8221; rests in both categories.<br />
I can&#8217;t remember a time I felt more ups and downs than now.<br />
And that is wonderful because I used to feel nothing.<br />
I can honestly say I feel deeply.<br />
But I worry all the time that it&#8217;s too late.<br />
Like I&#8217;m past my prime.<br />
The opposite of that is one of the things I know to be true, but I don&#8217;t believe it.<br />
It seems optimistic in a way that is deceived.<br />
I want to hope that isn&#8217;t true but the conjunction has so many followers.<br />
And it feels weird.<br />
And a bit wrong too.</p>
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		<title>Not Sure How</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 26 Aug 2009 05:44:28 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[(Help me to love&#8230;) My naivete is endless I think very simply and without much depth I act on impulse without thought to reception, intention and consequence I am your mouth and I butcher your words You have called me to create You have put this great love inside me and it overflows But I [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>(Help me to love&#8230;)<br />
My naivete is endless<br />
I think very simply and without much depth<br />
I act on impulse without thought to reception, intention and consequence<br />
I am your mouth and I butcher your words<br />
You have called me to create<br />
You have put this great love inside me and it overflows<br />
But I choke<br />
Do not let me silence it because the depression that would come<br />
The tormenting sound of the stones speaking with my voice<br />
But only inside my small and simple brain<br />
My potential is also endless<br />
But my hands are shoddy and tear like tin or tissue paper<br />
They&#8217;re cut and burned and are repeat offenders<br />
How can you trust them?<br />
Do you not see disappointment and failure in my face?<br />
And fear and regret hiding beneath?<br />
Yet the melody resides plain and childlike<br />
Unassuming and unaffected<br />
Why am I the instrument?<br />
Why is my tuning so strange?<br />
Why do you choose to make music with that which is meager and wanting?<br />
How do I form my mouth around the notes?<br />
By what timbre and inflection?<br />
And what of improvisation?<br />
Your answers are always in four and five note patterns<br />
Curiously detached from finality or clarity<br />
But intuition needs not any more questions<br />
The music speaks for itself<br />
I am the instrument<br />
I must open my mouth</p>
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		<title>&#8220;Sleepyhead&#8221; by Passion Pit</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 24 Mar 2009 03:40:13 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[I found today&#8217;s song review, first of hopefully many, on NPR&#8217;s SXSW mix page. The page allows you to stream over a hundred artists that played SXSW last week, and download some of the songs. Actually, quite a few of them. About 30 or so, but who&#8217;s counting, right? One of the songs I downloaded [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://www.myspace.com/passionpitjams" target="_blank"><img src="http://img.sxsw.com/bands/82953.jpg" align="left"></a>I found today&#8217;s song review, first of hopefully many, on <a href="http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=101495094" target="_blank">NPR&#8217;s SXSW mix page</a>.  The page allows you to stream over a hundred artists that played SXSW last week, and download some of the songs.  Actually, quite a few of them.  About 30 or so, but who&#8217;s counting, right?  One of the songs I downloaded is by an artist called Passion Pit and the song is called &#8220;Sleepyhead.&#8221;</p>
<p>The song starts off ah la Jay Z&#8217;s black album minus Jay&#8217;s Mom&#8217;s monologue.  A strong four/four beat with samples, keys, hand claps, and even the omnipresent, chipmunk-sounding female vocal.  Excluding Alvin, the song is completely vocal-less for the  :45 second intro (almost 1/3 of the song!), but when the vocals do come in I was completely surprised: the singer sounds more like the dude from the Shins than Kanye (or T Pain, but I think he&#8217;s a guilty pleasure of mine.)</p>
<p>Is this a mash-up I have never heard before?  Indie Rock and Hip Hop?  While it makes perfect sense for the modern white boy to comodify modern black culture, I would expect it to be more like Eminem or Andy Samberg, not Hipster Runoff MC&#8217;ing an uptown NYC club.</p>
<p>Passion Pit&#8217;s &#8220;Sleepyhead&#8221; reeks of MGMT to me (as if I&#8217;m an expert) but its up-tempo, happy club feel betrays its forlorn lyrics about destruction, isolation and the lack of understanding the other, even if they only happen to occupy the same dance floor.  Wait a minute, does this remind you of classic white boy pain?  Overly emotionalized lyrics about not understanding the girl on the other side of the room?  Hmm, sounds like postmodern wire framed emo to me.  Still rocks though&#8230; even if you&#8217;re dancing to this one by yourself.  5/5</p>
<p>Download it <a href="http://sxsw.com/music/shows/schedule/?a=show&#038;s=82953" target="_blank">Passion Pit &#8220;Sleepyhead&#8221;</a></p>
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		<title>Finished New Brunswick, New Jersey Goodbye</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 02 Feb 2009 17:14:20 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Chase</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Upon finishing New Brunswick, New Jersey Goodbye on Saturday, I think I&#8217;m glad I read it. I like that I was immersed in another&#8217;s experience of punk rock, and I liked the description of the New Brunswick scene, although it was minute. I also would have loved a companion CD with the book of the [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/New-Brunswick-Jersey-Goodbye-Basements/dp/0967728746/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&#038;s=books&#038;qid=1233595085&#038;sr=8-1" target="_blank"><img src="http://www.interpunk.com/itemimages2/147194.jpg" alt="New Brunswick, New Jersey Goodbye by Ronen Kauffman" align="left"></a> Upon finishing New Brunswick, New Jersey Goodbye on Saturday, I think I&#8217;m glad I read it. I like that I was immersed in another&#8217;s experience of punk rock, and I liked the description of the New Brunswick scene, although it was minute. I also would have loved a companion CD with the book of the New Brunswick scene compilation mentioned in the book. That would have given us non-scenesters a little glimpse of the sounds of Kauffman&#8217;s hardcore community.</p>
<p>Another complaint about the book is it reads like an impromptu conversation. Kauffman seems to write off the cuff about his memories of his college years, as though it&#8217;s a transcription of him speaking the book into some hand held recording device. This initially turned me off to the book, and by and large adds to the idea the punk rock isn&#8217;t exactly intellectual. While it makes for a quick read and seems to be in line with the tone of voice of punk rock (generally, and argumentatively), it sometimes sounds rather asinine and adolescent for an author with a masters degree.</p>
<p>Overall, I give it a C+.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.amazon.com/Anti-Matter-Anthology-Post-Punk-Hardcore-Reader/dp/188970301X/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&#038;s=books&#038;qid=1233595850&#038;sr=8-1" target="_blank"><img src="http://www.pluginmusic.com/news/images/1949.jpg" align="left"></a> On the upside, now that I&#8217;ve finished NBNJG, I&#8217;ve started reading <em>The Anti-Matter Anthology: A 1990s Post-Punk &#038; Hardcore Reader</em> by Norman Brannon.  It&#8217;s a collection of artist interviews done by the author from 1993-1998 (I believe) for a fanzine the author published called, surprisingly enough, Anti-Matter.  The interviews are not your typical &#8220;you&#8217;ve got a new album coming out, what was it like to tour with&#8230;, so you play Gibson SG&#8217;s&#8221; type of literary fodder found in most music magazines but is an attempt to make traces of humanity itself.  The interviewees in questions just so happen to be musicians playing some form of punk rock.  I&#8217;ve read the foreword and the introduction, as well as the first page of an interview with the lead singer of Samiam, which I am unfamiliar with at this moment in time, right after signing to Atlantic Records.  I&#8217;m sure this blog will read more about it as I myself do as well.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0044121/" target="_blank"><img src="http://scifidrive.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/03/the-thing3.jpg" alt="The Thing From Another World" align="left"></a> Oh, and it&#8217;s the second Monday of Curtis Blackwell and I&#8217;s weekly &#8220;Horror Movie Monday.&#8221;  Last week we watched the pretty terrible movie <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0295700/" target="_blank">Wrong Turn</a> which is apparently what <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0454841/" target="_blank">The Hills Have Eyes</a> is based on.  Don&#8217;t bother with it.  I&#8217;d give it a 1.5/5.  While not the worst horror movie I&#8217;ve ever seen (that would probably go hands down to <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0475298/" target="_blank">Snoop Dogg&#8217;s Hood of Horror</a>), it certainly isn&#8217;t worth the hour and a half the could be spent doing laundry, washing the dishes, or taking out the recycling. </p>
<p>Tonight we&#8217;re watching <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0044121/" target="_blank">The Thing From Another World</a> which is one of my all time favorite horror movies about a group of US military scientists who stumble upon a crashed UFO and a deceased alien inside&#8230; or so it seems!  Can&#8217;t wait.  It&#8217;s a fantastic film.</p>
<p>Anyway.  Enough blogging for this morning.</p>
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		<title>Young Widows Live at the Bluebird (St. Louis) 11/11/08</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 02 Dec 2008 03:57:06 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Young Widows are a three piece, post-hardcore band from Louisville, Kentucky. The band has been around since 2002, though their beginning was as another Louisville band, the metalcore gods Breather Resist. B.R. called it quits in 2005, and three of the four members stayed on to form Young Widows (not without first considering &#8220;Breather Resist&#8221; [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://www.bluebirdstl.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://a871.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/112/l_e4c031f23dc87c5ac89a9be4d1dc7426.jpg" alt="" width="170" align="left" /></a>Young Widows are a three piece, post-hardcore band from Louisville, Kentucky. The band has been around since 2002, though their beginning was as another Louisville band, the metalcore gods Breather Resist. B.R. called it quits in 2005, and three of the four members stayed on to form Young Widows (not without first considering &#8220;Breather Resist&#8221; but as a three piece. Vocalist Steven Sindoni formed Pusher <span style="text-decoration: line-through;">and is currently strung out, assumed dead</span>.) Young Widows performed at the Bluebird in downtown St. Louis around the City Museum, many bars and clubs, and the Gateway to the West: the Arch. </p>
<p>The Bluebird is a dive.  A small, hole-in-the-wall type of club that you wouldn&#8217;t notice just driving by.  But that&#8217;s how most places are in downtown St. Louis unless they&#8217;re filled with trip-hop beats and flashing red and blue lights (like <a href="http://rue13stl.com/" target="_blank">Rue 13</a> or <a href="http://lushstl.com" target="_blank">Lush</a>, for example.)  But, like most other cities downtown on a weeknight you&#8217;d barely see any activity whatsoever <em>especially</em> at the clubs (and definitely early in the evening, like eight pm) except (<em>maybe</em>) at a random, hole-in-the-wall, rock club like the Bluebird.  Unfortunately for myself, Young Widows and St. Louis in general, downtown activity is sparse at best, and completely abysmal at worst.  This applies most tragically to out-of-town, independent-label, &#8220;never-heard-of-them-before&#8221; rock shows.  In a city where Pink Floyd and Led Zeppelin cover bands can sell out multiple evenings at 1000+ capacity venues, and promoters don&#8217;t put on shows for local bands because they don&#8217;t break even; basically independent music doesn&#8217;t stand a chance.  But tonight, everyone who wasn&#8217;t in downtown St. Louis at the Bluebird missed out because Young Widows were fucking awesome.</p>
<p>When I arrived at the Bluebird I did what all gear-o-philes and music/musician-snobs do: I judged the band based on their gear.  Young Widows gear was back-lined, but not very well hidden by the opening act&#8217;s.  Based on my first impression their gear appeared</p>
<ol> #1) really freaking awesome in quality and<br />
#2) really freaking cool how they set it up.</ol>
<p>I knew the brands, <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/cyberkode/3020311763/" target="_blank"><img src="/wp-content/stuff/mikewhitedeadlydesign-emperor.jpg" alt="2 of Young Widows 4x12 cabs, Photo by Mike White of DeadlyDesigns.com" align="left" /></a>and their gear was quality but not too terribly interesting.  So you both have three cabs and two amps, big deal.  Most three-piece acts have a difficult time balancing practicality with ingenuity while being visually exciting during performance.   To battle the 2nd problem, most hardcore acts employ a single, instrumentless front man (which YW had while they were still christened Breather Resist). This is usually needed to keep the kids interested, but I am not a kid and I don&#8217;t need a overly enthusiastic figurehead in woman&#8217;s jeans up front flailing around or a muscle-head with a &#8220;Terror&#8221; shirt on or&#8211;better yet&#8211;no shirt preaching a/no message of no smoking, no drinking, no God or, you know, politics.  I&#8217;m generally open minded, and bands can be passionate about their beliefs, but don&#8217;t shove it down my throat dude.  Seriously, don&#8217;t tell me to be open-minded about why I shouldn&#8217;t be a Christian (or Muslim, or Buddhist or even atheist for that matter&#8230;), eat meat, buy Diesal shoes or what have you.  So you don&#8217;t like what I do.  Good for you, dude.  Now play your next song.  Fortunately (and despite actually having some cred that if they wanted to preach they could and I would listen) Young Widows weren&#8217;t confrontational, verbally abusive, or preachy at all, and are exciting enough as a three-piece that they don&#8217;t need an over-the-top frontman either.</p>
<p>Besides being a three-piece, Young Widows had another difficulty to overcome: they have just one guitar. Granted, some of the best hardcore bands have had only one guitar: Converge, Curl Up and Die, Botch, as well as most of the patriarchs including Bad Brains, Black Flag and Minor Threat.  Usually these one guitar bands run into the problem of sounding &#8220;thin&#8221; or off balance and have to find a way to beef up their sound since they don&#8217;t have two chunky rhythm players projecting abrasive guitar noise from both sides of the stage.  In order to sound fuller, the Widows had two sets of three 4 by 12 cabinets (custom <a title="Emperor Cabs" href="http://www.emperorcabs.com/HOME2007.html" target="_blank">Emperor Cabinets</a> at that) on each sides of the stage.  These were not your standard, square four twelve inch speaker cabinets set two by two.  These cabs were tall and skinny, with the speakers forming a straight line, one a top the other. These cabs were interesting looking but I didn&#8217;t know the full extent of their interestingness until they started playing.</p>
<p>Before Young Widows set began, they requested the lights in the club be turned off.  I saw they had a few desk lamps attached to their mic stands, and a white, glowing, UFO-looking foot pedal that I assumed was to turn on more lights.  Towards the middle of &#8220;Took A Turn,&#8221; the first song of the set and also the first song of their new record <em>Old Wounds</em> my suspicions were confirmed when bassist, Nick Thieneman, stomped the pedal and the 4&#215;12&#8242;s on the far left and far right of the stage lit up with four 12 inch speaker-sized work lamp lights in each.  This is an idea my old band came up with but never properly implemented and it&#8217;s a very creative way to light your performance. (<a title="Young Widows Stage Set-Up" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/elawgrrl/3019361132/" target="_blank">Here&#8217;s a decent pic of their set-up.</a>)</p>
<p>When I played in Pilots, both my bass player and I stacked four amps on stage anytime we played.  I had two on my side, and he had two on his side.  The Widows did this as well, but instead of having both on either side, they split them up, both players having one on <em>each</em> side.  This also accomplishes two seemingly contradictory things: it blurs the stereo image (by having bass and guitar on both the left and right) as well as creates many new stereo opportunities (which the Widows took advantage of.)  Evan Patterson (guitar, vocals) ran a <a href="http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/reviews/guitar_amplifiers/peavey/5150_head/index.html" target="_blank">Peavey 5150</a> and a <a href="http://www.myspace.com/verellenamplifiers2" target="_blank">Verellen</a> custom amp and each amp had its own pedalboard featuring <a href="http://www.loopers-delight.com/tools/akai/headrush/Headrush.html" target="_blank">Akai Headrush</a> loop pedals on each.  Sometimes Patterson would loop a riff on one side, then loops some fret and pick noise on the other, then play a lead over top of that while singing.  He also employed (I believe) a <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7taH4Cy7lQ" target="_blank">Line 6 Tremolo</a> pedal which has two outputs for stereo, &#8220;ping-pong&#8221; tremolo sounds.  Both Patterson and bassist Nick Thieneman also employed overdrive pedals and A-B boxes at end of their respective pedal trains so they could silence one cab or both cabs while playing.  This was one of the more ingenious tricks because of how much more control they had over their dynamic level.  This is a trick I will steal in the future.</p>
<p>Young Widows pounded through all eleven tracks of their new record <em>Old Wounds</em>.  While I was hoping for a song or two from their first effort <em>Settle Down City</em>, I was very satisfied by the length of their performance (<strike>especially considering how terrible the first band, Glass Teeth, was.</strike>  Upon further reflection, and after listening to their demo, I think I kind of liked their set actually.)  Young Widows sound like a freight train: power, rolling thunder and velocity with a consistent groove. Theineman&#8217;s thick, fuzzy, moving bass lines like the chug of the train itself in perfect sync with drummer Jeremy McMonigle and his constant kick and tom hits like the wheels the train rolls you over with coupled with Patterson&#8217;s telecaster wails and sometimes bright and chimey leads, other times thick and chunky chords that controls the train and billows such colorful smoke you&#8217;re left dizzy from the CO<sup>2</sup>.  Conducting the train was Patterson and Theineman both with partially sung, mostly shouted directions.  The set was <em>a-coming-down-the-mountain</em> ending with the dead-on triplets of &#8220;Swamped And Agitated&#8221; that are both groovy, and menacing.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.myspace.com/youngwidows" target="_blank"><img style="float:right;margin:2px 2px 2px 0px;" src="/wp-content/stuff/youngwidowspromo.jpg" alt="A promo photo of Young Widows with the design of Old Wounds pasted on their heads" width="350" height="234" /></a>Another stand out track both on their new record and their live performance is Patterson&#8217;s solo performance of &#8220;the Guitar.&#8221;  A song that begins with a simple two chord groove and melody.  Patterson slowly builds the song, layer by layer, by looping each part he adds, and playing lead while singing.  The song slowly pulls you in with its methodical, repeating &#8220;do-DUN-dun, do-DUN-dun&#8230;&#8221; and lyrics &#8220;got addicted at an early age.&#8221;  Patterson&#8217;s lyrics in &#8220;the Guitar&#8221; are about falling in love with music, and we&#8217;re left unsure whether or not he desires to love it so, or if it&#8217;s requited.  He speaks of learning, or more accurately, not-learning, how to play the guitar as a metaphor for his creative process.  The feeling of writing a song, of creating a piece of art, is addictive, but for most, Patterson included, the process cannot be &#8220;learned&#8221; much like when he &#8220;got a guitar, but never learned how to play;&#8221; the music just comes out.</p>
<p>While St. Louis is the city most bands love to skip, myself and the several others at the Bluebird on Tuesday were incredibly grateful Young Widows didn&#8217;t, and that their pummeling, groovy post hardcore compulsion was indulged.</p>
<p>Links:<br />
<a title="YoungWidows.net" href="http://www.youngwidows.net/" target="_blank">Young Widows official site</a><br />
<a title="Young Widows on MySpace" href="http://www.myspace.com/youngwidows" target="_blank">Young Widows myspace</a><br />
<a title="Young-Widows.blogspot.com" href="http://young-widows.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">Young Widows blog</a><br />
<a title="Young Widows on Flickr" href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/elawgrrl/3019361132/" target="_blank">Young Widows photos on Flickr</a></p>
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		<description><![CDATA[This is too funny.  There&#8217;s a couple pretty sweet lines, but it&#8217;s mostly ridiculous.  The sweet ones are bolded.  This is a piece I wrote for the Papyrus on April Fools&#8217; Day, April 5th, 2006: These pretzels are making me thirsty… You wouldn&#8217;t believe just how much I&#8217;ve eaten in the past two hours, just [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>This is too funny.  There&#8217;s a couple pretty sweet lines, but it&#8217;s mostly ridiculous.  The sweet ones are bolded.  This is a piece I wrote for the Papyrus on April Fools&#8217; Day, April 5th, 2006:</p>
<p><span>These pretzels are making me thirsty… You wouldn&#8217;t believe just how much I&#8217;ve eaten in the past two hours, just take a guess… I&#8217;m sitting across from Brandon Ross and he smells like flour, that cake-eater… If I could just have two things in this life one would be satisfaction… Yeah, right, surely, who do you think you are Mick, you can&#8217;t get no satisfaction… You may think that&#8217;s love, but I think &#8220;Oh my God!&#8221;… Aquamarine is a fair colour, and I like the British spelling of that word… I asked God if he had many employees in heaven, he said no, but he does have quite a collection of gossip… Jon Brownhill is wearing a red bandana but I prefer an afro…<span> </span>My feet are sweaty and have warts on the bottom of them… <strong>Which is funnier: a small child hitting its father between the legs with a baseball bat much like on America&#8217;s Funniest Home Videos or the thought of Pat Robertson in flames</strong>… Can you spell oddyssey, committment, or peice [sic]?&#8230; Fantastic!&#8230; Be ye cheerful and merry of heart for Christ is born this day in the City of the USA!&#8230; Don&#8217;t you fools know you can&#8217;t get up this way?.. This might be counterproductive, but Matt was looking for you… Grape Fanta® isn&#8217;t that good really, definitely not for a grape soda. I usually prefer orange if I gotta drink a fruit flavored soda anyway… It&#8217;s quarter of ten, maybe… Mel Gibson is very convincing in Signs, he makes me feel what he&#8217;s feeling… Apparently, and I didn&#8217;t know this beforehand, Greenville College&#8217;s entire baseball team hails from Scandinavia… I think I might be in love with Bob Dylan… Jon Brownhill also has dreads, but I still prefer an afro… I think if Jameson Ramirez wore a beret he&#8217;d look like Che Guevara, well, probably not, that guy looks like Benicio Del Toro…<span> </span>Dag nabbitt… I think what &#8220;senioritis&#8221; means is you&#8217;ve found something you want to focus on but you have 5 or 6 other classes trying to distract you from that, one of them being COR401… <strong>At Greenville College, different is good except when it offends and I aim to offend</strong>… Did he really just lie on the ground?&#8230; He&#8217;s a college graduate but he&#8217;s pretty much useless, he just sleeps all the time… Misinformation abounds… You silly, rabbit, Trix are for kids&#8230;<strong> I don&#8217;t know what it&#8217;s like over there? My roommate&#8217;s freaking Matt Good and you think I don&#8217;t know what it means to live in constant chaos!?</strong>&#8230; One of the best deals I ever came across was the Cardigans&#8217; <span style="font-style: italic;">First Band on the Moon</span> for $.25… Randy Bergen is a very fine looking man… I&#8217;ve eaten pizza about every day this week… As I child I went back and forth all the time between either the ability to fly or teleportation if God came down from heaven and ask me if I wanted to have a super power, or if I found a magic lamp that only had one wish left in it… According to the Disney movie Aladdin that proposition isn&#8217;t possible, each new master has three wishes, but who needs both the power of flight and teleportation because it&#8217;s a given that if you can fly you can fly with the speed of 7 747s&#8230; I&#8217;d like to transcend both time and space, well, I have transcended time, no, space, well, I don&#8217;t know what I&#8217;m talking about… I wish Allen Ginsburg was still alive ‘cause without him I feel as if a void as been put in my soul, but it could be the 5 pieces of pizza I ate tonight&#8230; Driving 4 cars to a show is xlocal bandx style&#8230;</span></p>
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>You always ask questions that you already know the answer to had you only taken the time to think
<div>But I love it when you answer your own question</div>
<div>I love seeing the light flash in your eyes</div>
<div>The sudden realization</div>
<div>&#8220;Oh&#8221;</div>
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